That is what I call her sometimes when she is just about TOO much.... Emma, that is. You know, God is a "too much" kind of God. Well, we truly got "too much" with this little girl! She is everything and MORE than we asked Him for. He knew all that we had been through with Elizabeth ( Elizabeth's story) and Brayden ( Brayden's story ) and I like to think that He was "making up" for all of that by sending us this precious princess...
Emma's Story
Where do I begin? At the beginning, I guess. We were told, after Brayden was born, NOT to try to have any more children. Kiven was told that I could die if I tried to carry another baby. I miscarried my first pregnancy, infertility, surgeries, bp issues, blood sugar issues, premature delivery with Elizabeth and then her death. We struggled to get pregnant with Brayden too, another surgery.. yada yada yada... Kiven was rightfully afraid! My doctor told him that we were "lucky" that we had Brayden and we should just stop there if he didn't want to bury me and any baby that we MIGHT get pregnant with. But, I had gotten ahold of the Word of God that said that I could have whatever I asked for IF I just believed it! Mark 11:24 says, "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." I was a baby Christian so I just dared to believe that it was true! Kiven wasn't there yet though. I didn't try and change his mind. I left him to God. I knew God would work on him. My doctor still said that he strongly advised against another baby BUT he would send us to Kirkland Clinic to see the same high risk specialist that saw us throughout my pregnancy with Brayden. He said, "We WILL do what Dr. Davis says!" He believed that Dr. Davis would line up on his side of the great baby debate. Kiven took the same stance as Dr. B did, we'll do what Dr. Davis says. Kiven is the head of our house so I knew that I would have to line up too, IF Dr. Davis shot me down. I wasn't moved though. I had just enough Word in me to believe that God knew the desires of my heart of hearts, and that He wouldn't let me down. I mean, ALL I wanted was another baby girl.. Dresses, bows and all that girly stuff that I didn't get with Elizabeth. The only dress that she wore was the one she was buried in. It wasn't fair! I just trusted God! I had to!
We went in early October to see Dr. Davis, second week actually. I took ALL of my records from my other pregnancies with us. Dr. Davis had all of his from our visits from when I was pregnant with Brayden. Bless his heart! He looked over EVERYTHING! He didn't talk very much while reading. I remember it was deathly quiet in there. I could see the concern on Kiven's face but I didn't have it. I KNEW that God would come through for me! I just knew it! When Dr. Davis looked up from all the files, he spoke the sentence that changed our lives forever... "I see NO reason why you shouldn't have another baby!" THAT was ALL I needed! God DID come through!! Thank you, Father!! We weren't even in the car before I was on the phone with Dr. B. I told him what was said and he wasn't happy but I reminded him that HE said that we would do what Dr. Davis said so we were having another baby! Kiven, I could tell, was still scared but I had NONE! NO FEAR!
It took Kiven a couple of weeks to get his brain around the fact that this was going to happen. I think all he could really think about was all that we had been through and all it took to get pregnant the other times but he was coming around to what the Word has to say. It speaks clearly! Our, then, pastor prayed over us, and believed with us but I knew that it would take US, as a family, to stand together and go to God for what we wanted. God likes for you to be specific about your wants. He also says to remind Him of His Word. So that is what we did. On or about the 27/28th of October, Kiven, myself and Brayden prayed together! We told God how much we loved Him and how we knew how much He loves us. We reminded Him that He had given Hannah a man child just because she asked Him for one. We reminded him that he doesn't play favorites, he didn't love Hannah more than He does us. We remind Him that His Own Word in Mark 11:24 says that if we asked and believed we received WHEN we prayed, that we would have what we asked Him for and that He also said in Matthew 18:19 that if we agreed here on earth, asking ANYTHING, that He would do it! We told him that we wanted a "healthy baby girl, better pregnancy then the other three, we wanted to go FULL term, no early deliveries this time and of course, and EASY delivery!" After that would just loved on Him some more. Then we THANKED Him! He said that if we believed we received it WHEN we prayed then we would have it so it was only right to thank Him for her! We BELIEVED that we received this precious baby girl RIGHT THEN! We continued to thank Him for her daily! Every time we thought about her, we thanked Him for her! It was on October 31st that we got pregnant! First real attempt! No surgery! No meds! No trying for 19 months to three years! Just prayer! Miracle number one!
Man, I need to bring this to a close! LOL! Long story shorter... We kept thanking God for her, daily. By the time I was four weeks and two days, she had her first name, Emma. We asked our then pastor to give her a middle name. He was responsible for teaching us that God is faithful after all! I wouldn't have dared to believe if he hadn't taught me so well. I told him to just pray about it because it was a HUGE responsibility! He didn't have to even pray, God spoke immediately! Her middle name was to be and is Faith.. Our little Emma Faith, I'll just tell you that we got everything we asked for and MORE!! Easy pregnancy, oh so easy! No issues with my heath at all! I carried her 38 weeks and two days. A week and two days longer than Dr. B had said he would allow me to. And Emma Faith delivered herself under the watchful eyes of Kiven and our fabulous friend, Tabitha Murray! Dr. B JUST made it in in time to "catch" her and cry with us. Emma Faith and EVERYTHING about her and my pregnancy is a miracle. This little girl shouldn't be here! The devil didn't want me to have her.. He's a liar and a thief, but we, through God, WON! God has big plans for this little girl! I just know it!
Emma is now a beautiful, smart, kind, caring, loving, compassionate, giving... well, you get the picture... She is EVERYTHING and SO much more that we ever asked God for! I don't even have enough words to express my love for this little girl! Just telling you that I love her with my whole heart just doesn't seem to be enough!
We are so thankful that God is a FAITHFUL God and that He chose US to be her parents! We pray that we are raising her in a way that honors Him!
Please know that Emma Faith has never been and will never be a replacement for Elizabeth! Elizabeth is still a part of everything that we do. Emma LOVES her sister and knows that she WILL see her again some sweet day!
Thank you for allowing me to share our miracle with you!
Just always remember...
"Let God be true, and every human being a liar." Romans 3:4
To God be the Glory!!